This will be a more personal blog entry...
Much has changed in my life this week. One of my best friends is heartbroken, that same heartbroken friend told me it was too hard for her to be in contact with me, leaving me broken. Another friend has had their heart broken and one of their dreams torn apart. I feel and sense the pain of others and carry it in my heart, for I know pain, as I have been to the darkest of dark places. Having just returned from the great freedom that was Guatemala, I now live in a place with such dark memories that I feel a weight in my heart and a longing to tear free and fly away from this place. To change my environment.
The power to change our emotive state is not always a possibility. For some it is a chemical matter, while for others it is situational. However, what we can do in these darkest moments when we are heartbroken, mourning loss, fearful of the future, or just deeply and darkly sad, is change our environment.
This does not necessarily mean moving to a new destination, it can simply mean changing one's routine, introducing a new activity (such as art, a sport, volunteering, etc.) that will ignite a change in your emotive state. One will never feel free from the darkness until one acts to ignite the flame of change in one's life.
For me, I actually will be changing my physical environment. More to come on that! However, when deciding how to live your life, always choose what makes you happy. Too many I have spoken with have shared stories of what they "could have done." Whatever your age, you may still live life not regreting what you "could have done" Yes, we have obligations, but we can maintain these obligations, whilst keeping ourselves happy. It is my choice, and your choice to live each day to its fullest potential and see life for what it is right in front of our eyes. This way of looking at the the world will make you smile until your face hurts!
The power to change your environment is in your hands. Follow your own curvy path; I'm certainly learning everyday how to follow mine. Much love.
